Actually I was planning to start my blog with the title 'Teenage Life'. But I stuck at the beginning so I cancel it. So I'm going to write randomly according to what my nervous system (izit nervous system or other?) interprat to my finger to press the keyboard.
Throw back to 1st of April of this year. It's April fool. I receive a message from my senior. At the moment, my heart stopped beating for few second. It's seems like fall from the high mountain. 'POM'. I stare blankly. Nervous system told me. "You life real begins.". I'm not going to write much about the past. I just want to write out the beginning of the story. Well. I'm recently having a very stressful life. Let's start with academic. I'm really don't know how is other people's mind working, wasting time on negative activities, sleeping and so on. My mind always tells me have to work harder, achieve more, let people know you are also the awesome one. But, physically can't function it. Once I step in Form four, everything changed. I'm not awesome like before anything. I failed my examination. First time, I was really sad. Now, failed? Failed ma failed lor. No feeling le. As Pn. Yuan says, 麻木了. Before examination, I spent my time on my cute bed. Ya my mind tells me have to work harder and I know I'm going to drop class. But, I can't move. I was even failed three subjects in the August Test. 22% in History subject. Breakthrough WeiQian's record. GOOD ! Fvck. The day before Malay subject in final exam, I was watching Running Man, a korean variety show in the midnight instead of study. What the hell was I doing. I am really no eye to see my result and which will I going for next year. Really very fed up.
Now, final exam has pass for five days. I am really fed up with my exam. I don't care anymore. What appears in my mind is my cute GG. During exam, my partner did a shit work(koko paper) and give to senior without complete the paper. I blow le ! Well. I planned to settle all the things after exam. Ya. IT'S NOW ! So, I'm really stressful right now. I tell everyone that I want to die. My heart is seriously fvcking suffer. Even when I was answering the test paper, my mind brings me to find my cute GG. Shit. Everything comes. Ya. Our seniors told us " I didn't hope you guys to bring up cute GG, but at least maintain. " Actually I blow. Please. What is this meant for? I know there will maybe some senior read this blog, but this is my blog. I just want to write out my feeling. whatever I like to write. I like to post. I don't care. Maybe all of you think we are impossible. But, we will show result before serah. That's why I'm stress.
I stress, because I stupid. It's real. The organiser and the person in charge didn't care, OngWeiQan ! Why are you care for so much?!! How stupid. These days I am really... stress. So far I was really didn't and can't sleep well. Really. Because. 我怕. The most stressful thing is come from my cute little members. Don't want to say le. Really gasp. REALLY LOL. Stupid members. Stupid members' parents. ! Fvck them.
Well. I'm not going to write much le. Many things, keep in heart. Heart know jiu hao. And now, I gotta go. I gotta go preparing and changing and ready to go school. I go brush my steel teeth le o. Bye.