I don't know

 After more than 3 and a half years, I blog like finally. I don't know if anyone will be reading my post but I don't wish anyone read it. Lol.

I don't know. Had a few drinks, reached Twitter, clicked in this link, and BANG.

I don't know. it's been three and a half years. Time flies, everything has changed. Currently at the age of 23, have been working in a small audit firm at Taiping for exactly one year. The following path is uncertain. Little Rona has messed me up. Messed everyone everything up. I don't know. I wish everything can just follow the flow. But I don't wish like living as an ordinary person. I want to do something different. DIFFERENT.

I don't know. I don't know how to bee different. I don't know. Everyone can reach the apple hanging up on the tree, it's all depends on one's intelligence and effort. I don't own both the characteristic. I have poor self-control. Maybe I'm just an ordinary person? NO. I AM RELUCTANT TO TAKE IT!

 

今天在电视上看了一位乡下阿婆从井里打了两桶水，主持人看了尝试担在肩膀，吃力地走了两步就放弃了。从下耕田的阿婆一担便健步如飞的走回去了。看着阿婆的背影，突然觉得我们好幸福。

STRESS

Ya. I've been eight months didn't update my cute little bloggie just because... nothing. Stop writing nonsense. START YOUR TOPIC !

Actually I was planning to start my blog with the title 'Teenage Life'. But I stuck at the beginning so I cancel it. So I'm going to write randomly according to what my nervous system (izit nervous system or other?) interprat to my finger to press the keyboard.

Throw back to 1st of April of this year. It's April fool. I receive a message from my senior. At the moment, my heart stopped beating for few second. It's seems like fall from the high mountain. 'POM'. I stare blankly. Nervous system told me. "You life real begins.". I'm not going to write much about the past. I just want to write out the beginning of the story. Well. I'm recently having a very stressful life. Let's start with academic. I'm really don't know how is other people's mind working, wasting time on negative activities, sleeping and so on. My mind always tells me have to work harder, achieve more, let people know you are also the awesome one. But, physically can't function it. Once I step in Form four, everything changed. I'm not awesome like before anything. I failed my examination. First time, I was really sad. Now, failed? Failed ma failed lor. No feeling le. As Pn. Yuan says, 麻木了. Before examination, I spent my time on my cute bed. Ya my mind tells me have to work harder and I know I'm going to drop class. But, I can't move. I was even failed three subjects in the August Test. 22% in History subject. Breakthrough WeiQian's record. GOOD ! Fvck. The day before Malay subject in final exam, I was watching Running Man, a korean variety show in the midnight instead of study. What the hell was I doing. I am really no eye to see my result and which will I going for next year. Really very fed up.

Now, final exam has pass for five days. I am really fed up with my exam. I don't care anymore. What appears in my mind is my cute GG. During exam, my partner did a shit work(koko paper) and give to senior without complete the paper. I blow le ! Well. I planned to settle all the things after exam. Ya. IT'S NOW ! So, I'm really stressful right now. I tell everyone that I want to die. My heart is seriously fvcking suffer. Even when I was answering the test paper, my mind brings me to find my cute GG. Shit. Everything comes. Ya. Our seniors told us " I didn't hope you guys to bring up cute GG, but at least maintain. " Actually I blow. Please. What is this meant for? I know there will maybe some senior read this blog, but this is my blog. I just want to write out my feeling. whatever I like to write. I like to post. I don't care. Maybe all of you think we are impossible. But, we will show result before serah. That's why I'm stress.

I stress, because I stupid. It's real. The organiser and the person in charge didn't care, OngWeiQan ! Why are you care for so much?!! How stupid. These days I am really... stress. So far I was really didn't and can't sleep well. Really. Because. 我怕. The most stressful thing is come from my cute little members. Don't want to say le. Really gasp. REALLY LOL. Stupid members. Stupid members' parents. ! Fvck them. 

Well. I'm not going to write much le. Many things, keep in heart. Heart know jiu hao. And now, I gotta go. I gotta go preparing and changing and ready to go school. I go brush my steel teeth le o. Bye.

Is going to write something shameless

Anihasayo ! I'm here. Although I know nobody will see my post. But, who cares ! I just want to write whatever I want to write. whatever I want to post. Bolehkah...

Yeah. Let's write something about CNY 2013. Was totally not excited to this CNY. Ah ma past away. Brother not around. Three members is a family. This call family? Go die. Fuck. First day of CNY, wear suisui. Went ahgong's house. In my expect, go there. smile. take angpau. thankyou. sitting there like stupid. times up. bye. Yeah. These are us when in my ahgong's house. Night, skype with Chong. He brought us to his hostel. Outdoor of his hostel. Omg ! why so shiok ! I want to go ! In the following days, gossip. sing k. gamble. eat. Nothing special.

Kay. Let's start. It was fifth day of CNY. Went meeting then Taiping Sentral. OMG ! I saw her. then I was kckc walking towards them. HAHAH ! I should take picture with her =( Sixth day of CNY. It's Ranger & Scout New Year Gathering. Before the event started, she text-ed me. Omg. I was totally shock. And of course happy lah. After the event, of course. Go taking picture with her. Hahah. I comment that xinyu can't sleep at night on KT's post izit? Actually is me. I keep looking at the picture ! Omg I think I am lessbian. But I'm not please. Hahah. Ninth day of CNY. went Taiping Sentral. Gossip something about uniform. I was shock. well. feel that ownself is stupid. suakk then. don't want to say liao. after that, went Station One. Saw Kt. Xinyu was shocked. hahah. After that, we were walking and talking about her. Suddenly, she appeared infront me. Omg I was totally melt. How come har. Night. Went school to be a helper for 新春晚会. Was taking picture with her. Omg second time. I want kisiao liao. ahhhhhhhh...

I'm going to end my post here. It's 11:44pm. I have to do my homework. Tonight not going to sleep. Also cannot finish my homework. walao. Kay bye.

is waiting them.

well. I hate to wake up early in the morning. Keep yawning. Ishhh. I'm am bored. So I blog. Lol.

I came to kl yesterday to fetch my brother. I think he should call for a lorry to carry his things. So much. You know why I use MUCH? Cannot count. Hahah.

Was go shopping at OneUtama yesterday. Brother bought sweater la. Jacket la. All the snow time wear de. Sienz. I want to buy too. But, buy for? Wear at? Hahah lol. At night, chat with aunty. Blog. Think corak. Sleep.

actually I don't know what to write. Just waiting them then feel bored so just write what I'm thinking. Ya. I think there are having meeting now. But I can't attend. Honestly, I really want to attend. I'm sure you know why.

yay. Going to breakfast then shopping. Gotta go to fetch my eldest brother. I wonder how long will us waiting him outside his house.

okay. Gotta go. Bye.

Kem Kemahiran 2012

Yay I'm back. Been two months didn't blog. Too tired on studying so I blog =P Broken english. I like a choi a =P

 Even how tired am I, how headache am I, how dizzy am I, how not feeling well am I,  when I'm playing computer everything recovered. Omg can't live without computer? hahah.

Ya I know camp already past about two weeks. But I'm still remember every details firmly. Because I like the camp so much. I like you guys so much. I like every events that you guys organize so much. WHY ! I think is 后悔了才会珍惜？Erm. I think so. Last year and the beginning of this year I really sick of it. Now? I like it much much. Hahah.

Before the camp, honestly all of us. Form 3 la I mean also sick of it. Even is Xin-Yu also blaming. Exam is just arround the corner. Tie-ing the gadget at home got scolded. Settled the bamboo at home got scolded. Stay school for marching. Then somemore someone keep skipping training. Know ownself beh iong tiok come practice la. Don't you know practise makes perfect? Tie a little bit gadget also tak boleh meh? Wa don't want to say you. I'm not the person that gossip someone behind her. Hahah. =P

15th September 2012 ! Camp ! I am so excited ! WHY ! I can meet her. Hahah. Early in the morning. Walked in and out from school main door to our class to carry the things. Omg. Gasp. Arranged class. Inspection. Marching Competition. Physical Training. Backwood Cooking. Hang On. Skill Learning of Flag-Rising, Bamboo gadget?, Rescus-tion, Cleaning, Bengkel.

Marching competition. Omg I keep doing wrongly. I really don't know which leg did shuyi henti.
Physical training. Omg what's wrong with me on that day? First round of jogging already gasp. gasp. gasp. Argh.
Backwood cooking. Why can't I lighted up the fire ! How failure am I ! Then somemore needed them to help me. Jiak lat. Using bamboo to cook is not that easy. Scare the bamboo cracks, keep flashing water to it. Cook until mau die liao. Face like burning. Like siao po. And that day school is full with people. St.John's Farewell, WuShu's Farewell, other clubs meeting and so on. Yer so paiseh. But it's okay. Hahah.
Flag-Rising. Hng. Engengchengchengdualiableng. Hahah.
Bamboo gadget. I like this. Used to see brothers cut the bamboo. Asked my uncle's lorry to carry. Keep finding the stone. Go to the workshop to collect ''naileng'' and so on. Now I have chance to build it. But I senang more more. No need to do such that things. Just bring gergaji and chairs. Hahah.
Mini gadget. Owh really tie ga siao liao. But, how awesome am I ! First time tie. Hahah !
Bengkel. Hahah so relax. I like this bengkel. Hahah !

Looking at her all the time during camp. Hahah. Siao liao.

Well. I really have to get rid from here. Or not I'll in trouble. This sentence so familiar? Get from Mr. Munes. Hahah.

Trial ! Gogogo !

Well. It's the first day of PMR trial. It's Malay. It's the subject I hate the most. My essay was jiak sai. My essay is even worse than my primary essay. How can. And two hours to write so many things. It was tired.

The day before trial, received those wishes from friends. There are...

• Huiyien =D
• Weiwen Teh miaomiao
• Shirwen
• Zoey
• Hsienwen
• Vanessa
• Xin-yu
• Qingjun
• Jiawen
• Mayshan

and so on.

Best luck to you, god be with you, sleep early, add oil, do your best, good luck lil girl. and so on.
Really kamsahabnida to you all =D

Tomorrow. English and science. gonna die. Tonight cannot sleep well d. So sad =( But, gogogo WeiQian !

After trial, yeah it's next Thursday. Should really celebrate it. Go lepak. Prepare souvenir. Have fun like siao po. Buy starbucks drinks. buy 1 free 1. And so many many.

But now, have to suffer 1 more week. Last, EXAM KILLS HUMAN'S CELLS !

Happy moment over. It's too bad.

Renjer Kem Tahunan 2012. It was over. Argh.

Before the camp, I was really did nothing. Cousins haven't go back to USA since she came back for ah ma's funeral. And so the members can't attend meeting during weekdays. So, I just let it go like that. I was really regret that I didn't prepare well. Well. Everything had pass away. Life continue.

16th June 2012. The day of camp. Omg I was so excited. Don't know why. I think I want to see her. Hahah ( Zying hor). Inspection, marching competition, physical training, backwood cooking, hang on, DIY, 999 & base game. It was so amazing. Don't know why. Maybe it's because of her. Hahah siao liao. Let's say about physical training. Omg it was my pia-est time. I've been four months didn't do exercise. Now I can get three lines not bad d. Hahah. Base game. What awesome games. I like that water balloon. Hahah.

Well. Time flied fast. 5:30pm . Bye. Reach home. Bath. Omg I'm going to die. Lie on the bed. I don't think I can move. Hahah. Then somemore a bit fever I think. But it's okay Panadol saved me. Then somemore can't sleep. Argh. Wanna remind them to bring things. "Excuse me may I speak to ..." "Sorry she was sleeping" Argh ! Well it's okay.

The next day, reach school. Meet her. So Happy. Hahah. Inspection, modern cooking, sketch, committee hunt. Omg the sketches is AWESOME ! Hahah. Really laugh die us. Zying's put your hands up, Xyu's siao lang, Per's khai lin. Hahah. Really can't stop laughing. Now writing sambil laughing. HAHAH.

Bengkel. I gladly accept. Hahah. She is awesome and we know it. (zying hor). Pai seh I really siao liao. Back home. Hahah. Only Zying and Xyu know what I am writing. Hahah. Siao liao wa =P

Owh ya. I am like lao ah ma right now. Leg muscle ache like hell. I am really never been so ache. Then Monday somemore sukan tara. Wow. So strong my legs. And I hate people keep asking me to stand up sit down stand up sit down.

Happy moment went fast. Stress slowly coming. Result come out. Last in me class. Last in A2. How do I face myself? Argh. Don't mind d. Die tiok die. Sleep. Bye.

R.I.P ah ma

Well. I have many many things to post. But, I AM LAZY TO DO SO. So whim now so I post. Pai seh. I know my english is really jiak lat but my chinese is lagi teruk I think. So I think english better. Hahah.

Okayssssss. Let's start. The week before ah ma pass away, omg I was so scare. Before, she woke me up everyday early in the morning. In the whole week, is my turn to wake her up. I scare when I call her she can't wake up ma jiak lat. Then after school, I scare to take bus. I scare my uncle tells me that ah ma what. And so it's the week before Middle Year Exam. I scare I can't participate the examination. I scare my result. And so it's the week before Marching Competition Perinkat Negeri. I scare I can't participate the Competition. 30 - 1 = 29. Owh I am so important. Hahah Omg.

12-5-2012. Saturday. I went to Ipoh for competition. When I reach home, I think is 6 something. She was already incoherent. Lol. Nine something at night papa called ambulance because ah ma already tak boleh liao. And the ''paparazi'' kaypoh mia people all walk and cycle to my house and see what was happened. Beh Kua. Hahah. Eleven something Loon and Chyi somemore came back happily then wanna see ah ma. Then my cousin told them ah ma was at hospital. Then they were just... hahah.

13-5-2012 6:45am ah ma pass away. Like that lo. Then everyone busy ''all over the world.'' INCLUDE ME PLEASE. Cleaning, communicating. what what what. Er ge came back one day nia = = ... because he has international examination or what la. something like that la. hahah. Cousins came successively. Then my house became livelier and livelier. Everyone laugh together. Cry together. Chat together. Meet each other. What a awesome moment. Honestly, I really miss that moment.

WeiQian, don't forget you're still having examination. And you were still laughing there, playing there, chatting there. No. I had study. But just take out my books, then played poker. Hahah because this was really tak boleh masuk otak. You know, it was already 5 something early in the morning. How to study?

Pattern pattern nia =P

Cousins' Iphone. "Qian, help me to charge." Hahah.

Well. Four nights was already past. After bai bai, it's time to go to TaiPingShanZhuang. I went school early for taking part my science and sejarah tests. Around 11 back home. When reach home, everyone's eyes was just.... Omg. Need to prepare tissue. Hahah.

The seventh day. Waiting the waiting the master. Take take some picture.

Well. The seventh day. 拾骨。Then bai bai.

Well. After bai bai, everything had ended. Everyone had to tell ah ma, Bye ah ma.

Ah ma pass away, life changed a lot. No chance to ask ah ma "ahma, lu ai jiak hami?". No chance to quarrel with her. Then somemore many many much much lot lot.

That's why I say people holidays two weeks but I holidays four weeks. People was having test and I'm relaxing. But today, result comes out. Last year Mid-Year Exam, my name was on the first page and is the first. Now, my name was on the last page and is the last. How would it be like this. Argh F***

I don't mind d la. Not my false at all okay. Is it? But heard people says this will affect next year class? Hope not so. Hahah. Kay bye.

Nothing. Just post.

Ya I'm still awake at this moment TO STUDY. I should proud with myself. Lol. But, I have to sleep right now or not I will be scolded. Oh it's too bad.

Erm. I think I kisiao already. Keep thinking of my latest idol. My idols? Ya. These idols are studying same school with me. My friends, my seniors, my buddies. They are my idol. But not all, just a few. One, two, three, four, five.

You. Erm. You are my Form 1 idol. I really don't know. Maybe we are in same club. Same persatuan. Or? Erm I don't know. Maybe you are pretty? Erm I don't know. Sorry I'm not lesbian.

You are my Form 1 - 2 idol I think. Omg i love you when you're playing guitar. ( please don't think senget ) . And you are handsome but too lala.

You are my Form 3 idol. Last month. You are really tall enough. Handsome enough. Perfect enough. I really love you. But not that love. No feeling de love.

You. You are my senior. Started when I was Form 2. I don't know why you're so attract me. Just shiok tiok you. And yesterday saw your picture, omg you're the prettiest among them. Omg I think I really kisiao liao. Sorry I'm not lesbian. Then some more got many things because competition was just passed about four days. But I can't write so detail.

Then some got I think is two people but I lazy to write because these people not so "youmeili" .

Paiseh. I ki hiao liao ( zhiying said ) . So what? Wokaixinjiuhao. Kay have to sleep d. Sweet dream =D